Training Week May 17th - May 23rd

Sunday, May 17th: As stated last week, I'm looking to modify (again) my weekly running and biking plans. I'm trying to keep the miles lower but more days. I just don't really think I care to push myself into distances (I already backed out of my virtual half). I am trying to have some grace with my running and myself during all of this. It is good to be strong and to be a fighter, but it is also good to be okay with not being that and to take it in stride. I feel like this is all about finding a balance that brings you joy while keeping up my health. So, today I planned to do at least 7 miles but hoped for 9 secretly. I did just over 8 and that was totally fine. I could have tacked on the additional .79 to get to 9, but I thought... why? What did that prove? I know I can run 9 and so why does that number matter so much? I made a choice to NOT have it matter to me and to be content with the distance that I ran and how I felt doing that. I did take on an easy bike ride while watching tv to get hit my weekly bike goal. Monday, May 18th: In trying to change when my rest day is, Mondays will now be my 5K day I hope. This run started out really good and then half way, my brain got the better of me. It happens and so I pushed through to finish and now am in a not entirely great headspace. Hopefully it'll pass and this is a funk that comes and goes during this whole shindig we have going on. Tuesday, May 19th: Although I had wanted to keep up running on Tuesdays in honor of the Run Club that is No More that was not something that will happen with the new weekly line up so I biked instead. It was okay. I still have my bad headspace happening so I went easy on the ride resistance-wise which is okay. I got on it and hopefully each little step will make things improve instead this head of mine. Wednesday, May 20th: I kept up with the hope of a 3, 4, and then 5 mile run day. I can feel myself starting to lag a big and wonder if there is too many days in a row despite my original goal of having Friday as my rest day. I can also tell that I'm hitting a hard patch regarding this whole lockdown, COVID19 situation and gearing up towards heading in Friday. I am not sure where the anxiety is coming from but it's there and getting persistent. Thursday, May 21st: I had hoped to run today, but it just wasn't in me. I considered doing nothing, but got myself on a Cody ride and a body-weight workout with Becs. Both went fine and I felt okay so I'm trying to keep this growing anxiety under control and consider what is causing it. I often wonder if hormones play a role and have an effect on how I manage this COVID stuff. Friday, May 22nd: Despite my rising concerns,the day was hectic but went fine. I had a massive headache and knew that I was not in a place to run, but after sitting for a good hour, I finally got on the bike to do a 20 minute with Alex. Saturday, May 23rd: I wasn't sure what I wanted to do really but I felt a few extra miles would do me some good so I went out and did a 5K. It felt good, quiet humid but not sun and it was early enough that I wasn't over heated. I wanted to meet my biking goals, so did a 30 low-impact ride a bit later. I think that set-up will help with the overall week better than doing two things on a Sunday even if a long run isn't an insane distance. I think I am also going to go back to taking Monday off because it seems like it was too many days in a row on with a longer run in there.