Once upon a time I ran two ten mile runs on a treadmill during the winter in which we got somewhere in the neighborhood of like about 6 feet of snow during the winter (fun fact: I honestly have no idea how much snow we got but about 6 feet sounds like a lot and it was a lot). And then one day, I have no idea when, I stepped back on the treadmill and was unable to even go a quarter of a mile before I started to have the beginnings of a panic attack and had to get off before I feared I would fall off. I tried a couple more times and about two years ago I just decided I could never run on the treadmill again and haven't since.
Flash forward to today. We had some thunderstorms happening and so I was unable to go outside and do a tempo run. At first I just decided I would do some cross training for the same for about the same distance. And then I thought "no get your act together" and just get on a treadmill and get this done.
So I did. There were many times today during the 6 miles (1 mile at about a 9:30 mile, 4 miles between an 8:00 and 7:41 mile pace and 1 mile cooldown at about a 9:30 pace) that I just wanted to jump off the treadmill and I could feel myself starting to have some aniexty. But I kept my focus as well as my ability to zone out and did it. Something like gives me some inspiration for the remaining weeks to keep centered on the fact that this is something I can do if I keep at it and keep my focus.
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