Not All Who Wander are Lost

Almost a week later and here where I'm at...

There is a part of me that despite my satisfaction with how I ran is now starting to be evaluated think weight could I have made up those minutes that I needed to? And more importantly I can't believe I really have to do this again. That is sort of where I'm at now too: it's not a question of if I do it again but a question which one I am going to attempt to qualify at. A lot of that has to do with the fact that I am not entirely okay being the only one of us that didn't qualify despite the fact I am probably one of the fastest female runners of my group of friends that I know. But at the end of the day I want to be able to say that I qualified and I know that I was so close and that I believe I can actually do this it is just a matter of once again putting in the time of the dedication.

Originally I began to think maybe I would try this again in May and sort of just try to get it over with as well as potentially run the same Boston as my husband. But upon further evaluation, especially after the week I had in which I am pretty sure I still do not feel okay, I think that I need more time.  Because I am always want to try and find vindication in an action I have about 80% made up my mind that I will try to qualify for Boston at Baystate again in 2018. Of course this means that my husband and I would potentially run different Boston's but that's okay.  I Deleigh he'll get to have his race and I'll get to have mine and we can both be the support staff for the other person.

In the meantime I'm a little bit lost and what I do from now. I have decided that setting goals is pretty much the only way I will stay on top of a functional runner. So these are my next two goals:

1.  Try to place at the local turkey trot that I do here. Last year I did the 5 mile run at a 7:43 pace  and ended up seventh in my age group. The person who got third did it at a 730 pace and I am pretty sure if I jump back into speed work in the near future I could do that. So that is goal number one.

2.  Run a 1:45 half marathon at Hyannis. This can get a little tricky because the training will be done in winter and it's a little bit harder to focus on doing any sort of speed work. But I think that it is something I can do especially if we have a reasonable race day climate.

So there you have it. I wasn't successful in what I had hoped to accomplish but that doesn't mean that you can't set your sights on something else and hopefully it'll make me feel a little less lost and a little bit better focused for 2018.