And here we go. Tomorrow is the day. I am going into this very nervous and also kind of now thinking I needed to do more. Maybe that's just how it goes, but I find myself doubting very much that I can even maybe manage four hours and I feel a bit out of shape after the last two weeks of tapering. I've been looking over the past long runs, seeing with my own eyes I did those runs and I'm just hoping it was enough. Now, though, I'm hoping it was enough to get me to the finish, forget BQ.
Theres nothing for it now. What will be will be and I have to understand that and celebrate what I've done and learn when this is over.
Right now I have three goal ranges: 1) I joke and say don't die but what I really mean is finished; 2) BQ; or 3) under four hours. I have modified this because that BQ seems far away now and I am findining myself just hoping to finish.
Some many uncertainties and doubts now creep. Did I do enough? Why didn't I run more? Why did I stop doing Sworit? What is going to make or break this? Can I do this? What if I can't?
I'm trying to keep the voices quiet and hope and, right now, that's all I can do.
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