Being Tired

 There is nothing unique or new with being or feeling tired. It's something everyone, in some manner, feels or thinks. You could play the comparison game until the end of time, trying to one-up or out-do someone with your tiredness and exhaustion and busyness. So, I'll just touch upon my own because it is heavy right now.

It's been a long couple of months and I don't expect anything to change so I constantly try to think of how I can (and need to) adjust. Each day, around 11am, I think "damn it I should have run in the morning" because I see my daily clock ticking down, my energy levels starting to go, and I just know how hard anything after the work day will be. And I've come to be of an age where I do skip days I normally wouldn't skip.

I hate that so much though. I want to be able to follow my plan as instructed. I know I can be dumb, but I want to be naive. I want to thank that I'll have the time and the energy, but I'm learning the lesson again and again that I won't and don't.

So, what does that mean? I don't know if I can change the tired without a huge change and I don't want that. I need to adjust and, to adjust, I have to commit. If I want to run like I want to run, I need to make sure I put in the effort to do that which is more than just following a plan. It's making a commitment to change and stick with it.

Despite being tired, I'll keep trying.